[She sighed, glad that no one was around to hear the sudden, surprised exhale of breath. Whatever she'd been expecting, if she'd been expecting anything at all, those particular thoughts were nowhere close to where she thought any of this was going to go.]
You saw that in my head. How lonely I was, the nights spent crying and scared.
... With you, you mean.
[She needs a moment more to process what exactly the last part of the last message means, and damnably, her heart beat just a little faster, just a little harder against her ribs.
Worst of all ... she'd be lying if she tried to say that she didn't think of him in exactly the same ways.]
Are those thoughts terribly distracting? When I think about you, I often find myself neglecting what I'm supposed to be doing, and what I'm supposed to be focusing on. I find that it's difficult, sometimes, to think of much else.
[ he's never been a good student, Rey. distractions from his lessons or plans rarely end up disappointing him.
but, where she's concerned... ] You can't let your concentration slip in the midst of battle, however. It can be dangerous depending upon the situation.
I will make sure to add concentration exercises to your training repertoire — teach you to focus and block out external influences, when using the Force. [ and he knows just how he wants to proceed with such a task, as well.
as for her request: ] My thoughts on you will have to wait for another time. [ ...perhaps as part of this "focus" training. ]
I would so hate to keep you from your duties. Even if I'm only in your thoughts.
[There is some truth in the statement. But mostly, even if she never says as such out loud, it is quite thrilling to know that she's found a place there.
But more importantly...]
I know. I still have much to learn - but I trust that I'll learn quickly. I've been a good student thus far, haven't I?
And you've been the best teacher I could have asked for.
[A good teacher, but completely frustrating in other ways, when he wants to be, when it pleases him. Like now.]
You have to know that now I won't be able to stop thinking about this.
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[She sighed, glad that no one was around to hear the sudden, surprised exhale of breath. Whatever she'd been expecting, if she'd been expecting anything at all, those particular thoughts were nowhere close to where she thought any of this was going to go.]
You saw that in my head. How lonely I was, the nights spent crying and scared.
... With you, you mean.
[She needs a moment more to process what exactly the last part of the last message means, and damnably, her heart beat just a little faster, just a little harder against her ribs.
Worst of all ... she'd be lying if she tried to say that she didn't think of him in exactly the same ways.]
Are those thoughts terribly distracting? When I think about you, I often find myself neglecting what I'm supposed to be doing, and what I'm supposed to be focusing on. I find that it's difficult, sometimes, to think of much else.
[... Does she want him to continue?]
Yes. Please.
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[ he's never been a good student, Rey. distractions from his lessons or plans rarely end up disappointing him.
but, where she's concerned... ] You can't let your concentration slip in the midst of battle, however. It can be dangerous depending upon the situation.
I will make sure to add concentration exercises to your training repertoire — teach you to focus and block out external influences, when using the Force. [ and he knows just how he wants to proceed with such a task, as well.
as for her request: ] My thoughts on you will have to wait for another time. [ ...perhaps as part of this "focus" training. ]
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[There is some truth in the statement. But mostly, even if she never says as such out loud, it is quite thrilling to know that she's found a place there.
But more importantly...]
I know. I still have much to learn - but I trust that I'll learn quickly. I've been a good student thus far, haven't I?
And you've been the best teacher I could have asked for.
[A good teacher, but completely frustrating in other ways, when he wants to be, when it pleases him. Like now.]
You have to know that now I won't be able to stop thinking about this.
...
Its part of the lesson, isn't it?